The Medicine of Being Human Podcast
Plants, Stars & Everything In Between
The Medicine of Being Human Podcast views the human experience as a healing journey. From Inner Earth to the Cosmos, I explore the healing power of being alive. This is a vehicle and bridge for your Embodiment. It is here to help you remember who you are, and why you came here.
This is an alchemical process. We create medicine out of the messiness, and breakthroughs out of the breakdowns.
This podcast is for the seekers, the consciousness explorers, the Starseeds, the plant medicine enthusiasts, and for anyone looking to make sense of the human experience.
Why are we here? What is the purpose of all of this? How do we hold space for our Humanness? If you feel interested in this podcast, if it’s found its way to you, I encourage you to take a listen.
If you’re here, it’s because you’re helping to weave a medicinal web that supports us on the healing path of being human, and expands our perspective of what being human really means.
Thank you for being here.
With love from your Co-pilot,
Click below for individual episodes and the transcription notes. Transcription lovingly prepared by Deshawn Loveless.
Episode 222 - Embodiment
What does it mean to be embodied?
In this episode I talk about:
- how being in a body allows us to heal dense trauma and karma in tangible ways
- what it means to 'leave' when it gets tough
- why grounding our energy is imperative to the human experience
- why it's so hard and scary to be here
- how we have been conditioned to leave our bodies, keep our energy UP and disconnected from the natural timing of the earth
- how being ungrounded has resulted in anxiety, ADD, and other 'disorders' prevalent in our society
- how Ayahuasca opened up my lower energy centers, and helped me live a more embodied life
- practices to ground your energy, clear energetic density and anchor into the core of the Earth
- ancestral trauma and healing through our bodies
- stopping the trauma cycle so we don't pass it on to our children
- a common spiritual path that takes us up and out, and how we need to balance this with going down and in
- how we are the ones here bridging between old and new paradigms
- the shadows within the lower 3 chakras and the power that lies within them
- our transition to a symbiotic, reciprocal relationship with the Earth
- how plants are our guides, and wisdom keepers supporting us on this shared journey
- how to foster a connection with plants and the Earth
- how plants are more tapped in to the greater web of life, and what they have to teach us about embodiment.
The Medicine of Being Human
Podcast Episode #111
Space = Source | Planning & Releasing Linear Time
Let’s talk about Planning, and Space, and Time…
So most of my life, (I well ...up un— yeah my whole life, up until now) I thought something was wrong with me, and still noticed this story playing in my head because I find it nearly impossible to plan ahead.
I’ve done many personality tests and ways…different ways of understanding who I am in this— in this life, and one that resonated most recently with me is the archetype of the “Explorer.”
One aspect of that archetype is that, the present moment is really all there is.
I feel that as we’re shifting from a more logical, linear, 3d physical reality to a higher frequency, we are releasing these old paradigms, this old grip on linear time and the concept that one can truly plan ahead for anything— as if we can control time, as if we can control the infinite possibilities unfolding in each moment.
Planning, more than anything, has caused me more anxiety in my life.
It’s the constant spiral that I find myself in; with having a commitment in the future, getting up to the night before and realizing I haven’t prepared yet.
The anxiety comes from this pattern of believing that I should have prepared long ago, and that I am thus: a bad person, a failure.
I compare myself to everyone else and see them, i project the golden light on to them as if they’re— they're the best planners in the world. As if I even know...
Then the spiral creates a very heavy energy that stops me from being able to actually Act.
It’s a really beautiful design...
So then, it causes a deep spiral of confusion and doubt, questioning of my self-worth.
Then I go into... “I’m not worthy of doing this, I’m not capable of doing this, I shouldn’t do this... It's a sign that I’m feeling resistance because I haven’t prepared yet.”
All of that is— is literally a mind spiral...
It’s taking precious energy, precious life force vitality from the present moment, and spiraling it out into the future, into the past, into these other stories that none of which are true.
To give an example of what it could be like, another path would be… in the moment feeling the desire to prepare for tomorrow— and preparing for tomorrow, following that thread of energy. Acting on it without tension, without stress.
So how do we get there?
One of my greatest teaching in this Ascension work is that, “Space = Source.”
When we create space in our bodies, when we create Space in our life, we— there is more space for Source energy to move through.
When we are full; when our mental processing is full with thoughts and plans, and dwelling on the past, and grasping onto your distractions, and social media and TV, and news, and everything…
…There is no Space at all, for anything to move through. There's no space for Emergence of the New.
So think of— think of Space as the womb…The Void. (Literal space, like if you look up in the sky.)
It’s a place of Endless Possibility.
(We don’t know what’s going on out there anything could be going on.)
That is the blank canvas of creation.
A woman’s womb is where life can start, where infinite possibilities exist in this open space.
Same with our emotional bodies, our astral bodies, our physical bodies.
Just like with mental thoughts… when we fill ourselves with toxic energy, toxic food, toxic emotions, general misalignment— inflammation occurs that literally is a puffing up, that’s taking up more space.
And again there’s no space for Source to move through.
It makes it very hard for the Light, (the Divinity of our being) to come into our physical form, into ourselves when they’re full of toxicity or density— when they’re full of old, unresolved trauma, repressed emotions, and ancient fear.
This is the work we’re doing here reincarnated in this time— at this time on planet Earth in these bodies-- to clear—
...Clear the old traumas and karmas, heal the Collective; so that We as a collective can anchor in more Light, more Source, more Divinity into these human vessels and embody the truth of who we really are.
So… this time is challenging because we’re right in the transition phase…
We're literally straddling the line— many of us— are straddling the line between denser and less dense frequencies...
We may feel split in two as we navigate this transition.
This is not to be taken lightly, (it’s really challenging…like, the most challenging) this shift from time and planning and linearity— perceived linearity, is a big one.
It requires a lot of surrender and shifting from planning, and controlling every aspect, trying to control every aspect as a means of safety.
We— we do this so we feel safe.
When we do that, there is no space for life to move through us.
When every moment of our day is planned, there is no space for life to occur.
There is no space for spontaneous connection with yourself or others. (And it will still happen, because as much as we try to control; the one constant in life is change.)
So we have a choice as we are in this paradigm shift from linear reality to present moment unfolding...
We have a choice of whether to surrender and open, and approach the unfolding of life with ease...
Allow the unfolding of life with curiosity, embrace the unfolding of life with joy.
Or we can grasp more tightly, and bring more tension as things become less linear, less understandable, less graspable by the human mind.
We can grasp more tightly until we’re pushed to the breaking point and the moment of surrender occurs.
That may be the path for many of us— and there is no right or wrong…
One of my favorite acr— acronyms for love is, “Let others voluntarily evolve.”
We’re all choosing our own paths and have chosen our own paths, yet there is also free will of how we adapt and grow and evolve.
We always have a choice in the moment of whether we want to approach our experience with suffering, with tension or with release, receptivity, surrender, openness, flow.
There's this quote, (I don’t know who it’s by— I saw it on a Port-o-potty wall at the Beloved Festival) “The fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself.”
(I was trying to apply that to this anxiety around planning.)
It’s like …”The fear of not having planned enough is worse than the actual event or experience, right?”
It’s this fear of failure, but that’s an old paradigm.
The true fear— is the fear of being seen for who we truly are in all of our vulnerable Glory.
And that starts the planning spiral— the possibility— the inkling of the possibility that we could be naked, unknowing what’s coming next.
That we could be truly bare, open and seen in that moment for our true selves—without the masks, without the plans, without the shtick, without the control, without the sense of having it all together. (Because there’s nothing to have together anymore…)
That is what scares us. That is what our ego—with all its Glory— tries to protect us from.
We can say, “Yes.”
We can feel the fear, and act anyway.
As Glennon Doyle says, “We can do hard things.”
We can stop trying to control our lives, and we can sit— connect with our own hearts in stillness— and from that place of our true center, allow Source to move through us.
We can actively work to clear our vessels, release the dense energy, move the emotions through us, face our demons, love our shadows…
We can active actively clear our inner space, our mental space, our energetic space, our relational space, our ancestral space…
This is what it means to hold Space; a clear vessel with the energetic capacity to be present for Source to move through in the moment— with Trust.
It’s a pure channel of presence, and trust and surrender.
So… (grounding this down a bit)
“How do we do this?”
How do we align these— these paradoxical concepts of, ‘be in the moment, flow with life...’ and the fact that we have commitments, and we have a future and a past timeline in this current Consciousness, and we have money, and friends, and social engagements to keep?
And…I don’t have a clear answer. But I do know, that the moment planning and anxiety spiral starts, that’s an indicator you’re not being present.
And I know that starting and acting (this is embodiment, right?) that by acting, taking action with your body, getting out of the Mind, starting to clean the dishes…
It doesn’t matter what you do but instead of thinking about it— shifting into being it— it shifts everything.
And the more we can practice presence, the more we can practice one thing at a time, and trust that life and time will expand.
As you embody more Source within your Being, you embody more of your creator-ship in your being... meaning more of your power, your sovereignty, your ability to create in the present moment.
That increases with more presence, with more space.
Space, is everything from rest, from stillness and meditation, from creative space, from time to allow creativity to unfurl, from physical space— “What’s your environment like? How much time do you spend in nature?”
From unplanned space— “Do you ever walk through the middle of town just to go for a stroll and see what happens?”
Inviting more space into your life will invite more Source into your life, more Source energy, more life force, more vitality.
And from that place of increased Source energy, you will create your own time.
Your world will unfold around you in perfect alignment.
You will be free.
What is my Life Purpose?
This is the driving question underneath everything pretty much, it’s the existential question.
Why?—why am I here? What is my purpose here? What am I doing here?
And that question says a lot because the fact that we wonder why we are here, means that somewhere in our Being, we’re aware that there is not here.
And for many; all of us, at times in this human life, being here is really fucking hard.
(I’ve decided as of right now I’m going to be swearing on this podcast.)
So why are we here? What is my purpose here in this human form on planet Earth at this time?
That is to me -- what that question is really asking... ‘What is my purpose?’-- is a much bigger question than, how am I going to pay my bills and be happy at the same time?
It’s a question of fundamental existence.
So we’re letting go as we increase in --in frequency I guess you could say, as we continue on this path of Ascension, we’re letting go of old paradigms and old definitions of words and ways of being.
So we’ve created this box, this structure around the question of life purpose.
We often think about career or some sort of passion project --it becomes an external experience and it’s something that we have to find outside of ourselves.
Like I have to find --I’m searching for my life purpose.
I’m seeking for it.
There’s a longing
And that word Longing, if we can fully be in the longing we create ‘Belonging’.
And really what we are looking for is – is for ourselves.
We want to feel a sense of belonging, we want to feel a sense of home, of Union, of connection, of community, of love.
And when we can be in that place in ourselves, then we’re all of a sudden in a state of belonging.
So it’s less about the longing for life purpose ceasing to exist and more about being the full experience of longing for life purpose, or anything.
And this gets at the main teaching around life purpose.
Life purpose, like you're here to be who you are because this lifetime of being a human on Earth at this time, is a small blip of the entire picture of your life and your existence.
And so if we zoom out, and come from the belief that we each chose to be here at this time, knowingly going into the state of amnesia so that we can remember our true self, then choosing to be here is your purpose.
It’s as simple as that.
It is by the fact that you are here, you are fulfilling your purpose.
And now you may be questioning that and feeling like that it’s too simple...
So your life purpose is -- is you, it’s your essence.
And we have defined...we have definitions of things that put – that puts things into boxes….
So things like a label -- labeling your purpose – the fact that we want to label, we want to hold onto something with our mind… we want to define ourselves with a word or a string of words and then we’ve found our life purpose.
That’s the energy – that’s the old paradigm energy that we are shifting out of.
So your career, (even a project that you work on) that’s one portion of the expanse of your life.
You could be convinced that your life’s purpose is saving the whales -- which is a very valid and needed thing to be doing right now...
And there will be a day when you're not actively saving the whales, so then what?
And that gets at the Crux of the problem; wh-- when we define ourselves... when we define our life purpose as something outside of ourselves or attached to something external, we will continuously be seeking.
We will continue to look outside of ourselves.
Our life purpose is being our truest self; its anchoring in the essence of our Being, of our Divinity, of our Source, of our Light; whatever word you want to call it. Anchoring in your truth, embodying fully into this human form in this moment of now.
That is your purpose.
Bringing all of yourself -- showing up fully.
There are things that we -- that are medicine that we--we value on these more subtle levels that we rarely speak about
But and from a societally conditioned standpoint are not valued.
We don't talk about the fact that someone is a really good hugger, or someone who can hold space for grief, or the friend that you can fart in front of.
Like those may seem trivial because in our 3D [the old Paradigm] where we have these defined roles, we have been conditioned to value things like -- CEO of XYZ company or yoga teacher—
These things that we can define really easily and neatly, have more value in our (just in the conditioned sense) than the good hugger, or the person who can hold grief or the person you can fart in front of.
But the reality is, in the –in the present moment…
If –if a loved one dies and your friend or that person is there holding space for you is there fully present for you…
THAT’S A GIFT!
That’s --that is someone’s unique Essence, unique imprint coming through.
And we each have our unique essence, we each have unique gifts, and they’re not all defined by any means by the societal labels that we’ve created.
This is medicine --this is The Medicine of Being Human
Each of us carries a special medicine --It’s what makes us, us.
And when we communicate and interact with each other, we’re sharing our medicine.
There are so many aspects of ourselves that are not defined --and now more than ever perhaps as things are quickening, (as we’re ascending faster-- as change is the only constant -- and it's not stopping and we’re being called to step up -- and we're being initiated left and right) it can be really easy and common for people to feel lost.
And that can result in a fixation on finding this ‘life purpose.’
It’s like a grasping for the life raft – it’s like we think we are going underwater so, you know, this is-- this is my thing…
I have find my career…I have to push-- push myself to not feel lost-- I have push myself to feel safe-- I have to find that thing outside of me that will satisfy my longing.
But there will come a point; As things continue to quicken, the change continues to happen the challenges continue to come, that we will surrender into the soft Embrace of our Hearts.
Like our real, Full multi-dimensional Hearts.
And once we let go of trying to fit in, of trying to attach to these externally defined value systems-- and we’re clear on what we truly want in each moment, on what we truly need, on what we desire, on what we want to say, what we want to share.
And when we act from that place... that is our purpose.
Being you, sharing your truth, following your heart embodying your divinity…. that is your purpose.
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